Grumbled
There are times when you get yourself annoyed about something for which you are responsible and have control over and despite having the power to right it you don't because you are too annoyed. At such times you may describe this feeling as "having grumbled yourself". I have grumbled myself.

I do not need any further knitted items. I do not need any further quilts. I have knit and sewn for most if not all of my relatives and although I could do more and fill in some gaps I do not want to. I want to knit and sew things for me. But I don't need anything. This is the perfect definition of the self-grumble. It is very annoying.